December, Philadelphia

I'm afraid to be honest.
But this time I know what I want:
To tell her to her face,
"I came here
to see you, but
I didn't want you to know,
until I know
you wont tell me no.
Tell me I'm crazy or creepy or anything
Or tell me you want me too.
That you're scared too
That life isn't easy for you
but maybe
if I were a part of it too
it'd be a little easier,
better even."
Thats what I want and I'm sure.

The River that Ruined My High School Graduation (a haiku)

When I was a girl
The Chemung River Flooded
The whole town shut down

love lost

If its all connected why am I apart?
Disperate parts seeming whole
to some
I don't see

No other can show me the way
They say
'Experience it, fullness
of life'
Me, who questions his own existence
Tries to prove free will
by irrational action

Do I want stability
a good job
with benefits
money
and...
What do they find, see or seek, there?
(furtively grasping air)
I have to be missing
something
Please
God.
God? or just and empty, sucking
vacuum
swallowing all excesses of thought, reason
no answers
except to reveal multiplicities of uncontemplated, unheard-of
dreampt of variables, knocking down
constraints
infinite possibilities to choose from, but
only one?
Thats all I get in the end?
Better make it good,
or better off saying 'fuck it
all'
Thats right
no love
lost.

.

A Text [6:55 pm]

To: Jack

Im really impressed with
what little ive seen of
your writing, and perhaps
a little jealous too. Side
note- do you think a huge
ego helps one write?

A Chat

[1:07 am]

me: i thought you might think i was implying your ego was large

Jack: oh, well that

me: which i didnt want to do

Jack: that too

[1:08 am]

well, what do you think of that post
its kind of lame
but I figured since you are the only person reading it,
I may as well pander to you and by the way,
thanks

[1:12 am]

Jack: if you have critiques of anything I put up,
it'd be cool if you commented them right on there
that way,
if I edited them,
we'd know the goodness really is a shared things

[1:13 am]

me: i was actually just messing with the latest one

[1:15 am]

Jack: i wish I understood what that meant

me: um

[1:16 am]

Jack: this convo is getting way to heady for me...
regardless of what you did or did not mean,
or said or didn't say...

Lisa Says

Lisa says
on a night
like this,
It'd be so nice
if you'd give me
a kiss.
And Lisa says
for just one little smile,
Ill sit next to you
for a little while.

Lisa says,
Lisa says,
Lisa says,
Lisa says

Lisa says
you must be some kind of fool,
The way you treat everybody
so cruel.
And lisa says
you must be
a funny kind of guy,
The way you're always
staring
at the sky.

Lisa says, lisa says, lisa says, lisa says

-[Who else but] The Velvet Underground[!]